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Posted on June 25, 2010I never wanted to see YOU unhappy…Thought YOU wanted the same for me. I am sad. Again…and this time I will not lie to myself. I am trying my level best to actually forget HIM. I know I have this feeling in me that why is it that even after being in such great mood I slip into this stage. I do not feel like sleeping, I do not feel like getting up,restlessness and body ache all the time. Feeling of emptiness in my heart remains as a permanent feature. It is going to be so long that I hav’nt felt free and independent. I am scared of crowd, cannot cross the road on my own…Creepy shit you know..stuff that I thought could never happen to me.
When, how I became like this I don’t know. These regular mood swings are visible even in my posts. If only I had some one to trust. To be with and not be scared of getting hurt. But, who? People are so hell obsessed with there lives, that it seems almost impossible to find some one who would be interested in my life. These are the secrets of a women who suffers loneliness every moment. Now it is quite evident in my behavior. The contradictions that I make in my own statements are surprising. Like I mentioned here. Not trusting some one but, still wanting some one to come……
Goodbye My Almost Lover…..
Posted on June 23, 2010So, I like this song, and heard it long time ago. But it is now that it makes sense. Dedicated to HIM
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind images
You sang me spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes clever trick
Well i?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images no
Well i?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and i’m haunted
And i bet you are just fine
Did i make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Why can’t you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Friends Forever!
Posted on June 21, 2010Every Morning I wish i could Just stay..Wish the mornings would just stay…
I love my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love them more than myself! They know what I want, what I like, What I dislike….when I am sad and what is it that I need to set my mood right. Is this any less than miracle? Fuck the bloody world that makes me cry and fuck those people who think I am an idiot.
My buddies, My Life!
Yes, Am an idiot but, my friends are not. Do you know what gives me the strength to stand up again when I fall down because of my own stupidity and my emotions? It is those hundreds of messages and phone calls that my friends send me, telling me how much they love me and how much they want me to be happy. And hell yeah I am happy with them. I forget all the pain. All the misery that my bloody use less love gave me. They make it a point that I cherish their love more than HIS who gives a damn and is may be moving around the city with some new freaking doll!
Go to hell you! I might cry a thousand coming nights because of you but you what! My friends have the power to dissolve the pain like magic does. You think you are gonna give me bad time? LOLZ! my friends will not let you. Every time you hurt me, every time they will come to make me happy. You are nothing. To every one who ever thought that hurting me is easy. Yes, you are right but fighting my friends and their hopes attached to me is IMPOSSIBLE! Bloody freaking losers. I dedicate this post to two of my best buddies. I wish I could mention your names guys. But you are far more important than me mentioning your name here. I love you both! muah!
My Confession..I Am Lovin It!
Posted on June 19, 2010I Natasha James Hereby Declared that I completely Drool over my Boss. Yes! also I give a fuck to whatever he deciphers out of this but OMG, the world should see my reaction every time he calls.Rather, I should see my reaction. Even he had caught it ones when I said that long sighed ‘Helloooo’!
No offense to the love of my life but, dude, he is the first man after you I found better than you! The attitude, the ruthlessness and the laugh, oh specially that devilish laugh on the phone gives me all the reasons to be happy.After such a long time I have found some to actually look forward to talk to. All men looked the same to me otherwise! The same dumb flirtatious attitude, (and they actually think they can win the woman!) the same dumb ‘you look hot’ compliments..Aargghhh!
However, as for any one who is reading my posts regularly should have known by now that my boss is such an important part of my writing. So, today I decided to confess the secret. Whats the big harm in it, I know he won’t be able to keep the thought in his mind for more than 60seconds (that is the best part about him) and just smirk it off!
However, the only way to impress boss is by working hard, which I am planning to start off with pretty soon, I have not had his attention from soooo long!
But Yayeee…I have a crush on my boss and his brain! The way he plans his ideas and future techniques is impressive. I like men who know what they want and unfortunately I do not come across many like this. All of them are either running blindly after money or that hot chick who won’t talk to any guy.Anyways…my boss is nothing like these idiots! He is money minded and that is what i adore. Some One had said some shit to him about me some time back though, but I hope he does not care much.
(You will not kill me after reading this! Right Boss!)
Pearls Of Wisdom By ME!
Posted on June 17, 2010I am sorry and I take all the responsibility of the stupid and lame thoughts that had been hovering on my mind! These are the side affects of being an emotional ass (boss would agree). See, it is all veru simple. It is all about being honest to your own self. Why I am saying this, is because until and unless I am not true to myself I will not be able to convey my thoughts to any one (not even you!) I love HIM. I can probably fool every one around myself that I am just happy being friends with HIM but deep down I know I LOVE HIM. There is a difference between friendship and love.
Peace,Love And Happiness
This is the reason behind all my suffering. I had been trying to be some one I am not. I had been trying to be HIS best friend where as I wanted the attention a lover wants. I had been trying to convince myself and compromise on my feelings. i know it now. I love HIM, HE does not! Painful but, simple. So if you guys are fooling around with the world then go ahead guys, but remember, in the end of the day before you go to sleep you know that there is something nagging you. It is your conscience. You know what you want. The first step to be happy is being true to yourself.
Love mmuuuaaahhhh
