Happy! :-)
Posted on May 08, 2010I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Seriously I don’t think I have been happier that this ever since I Started writing here. It feels good. I am such a bitch! Honestly! I have done the most forbidden, the most ‘not so moral’ stuff, lied to people, to my family but one guy! Yes, it’s HIM. I have never lied to him. Never in the past one year, I felt like lying to HIM. This was the comfort level we shared. and yAyeeeeeeeeeeeeee….I continue my record. yyeeepppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee… See basically I don’t have much to tell , as I cannot express my feelings inside me. This is the most stupid part. When you cannot express your feelings in words.
Yesss....My Face Is exactly like this....
I was sitting with my friend today, and we were discussing our journey so far together( Yes, we gals are bloody velli and emotional) and when we reached my life one year back and HE came into focus I stopped babbling. It was a different feeling that was surfacing itself in my heart. The freshness of life that I felt in those days. Everything was the same. My dwelling was the same,my family,family environment..But everything sad and bad was too trivial to pay attention to. The most beautiful feeling was inside me and the guy who gave me that feeling with me.
See, Now you people see…how can I expect myself to move on..when he is so much within my………..(pause)……. existence? ( did i even make sense with that line?) I wanna know your experience with Love..any one? anyone at all?
I Refuse To Give Up! (Again) :-)
Posted on May 05, 2010Today I have the answer to all those people who ask me,”How can you share your personal stuff online?” and generally I don’t have much answers to give them. But today, I know what to say. I have been behavin like such a loser from past two days. Honestly, I think I had lost it! How can I crib and cry? That is so not me. And for all those who kept askin me the question above..Guys writing here is determining not to give up. I had plans to almost jump off my building. Frustration has it’s side effects but, baby that is so not me! I cannot. I JUST CANNOT GIVE UP. If I had to behave in such a cowardly manner then I have no right to tell anyone to break the conventional ways of living(read the intro !)
I am Such A happy baby
Problems are taking my life away from me. Until today, when I just read the name of this blog. BREAKIN’ The Code!
I don’t have much time write now. I just came to let myself and all of you know. I refuse to give up. Nope! Plan changed. I am not crying or cursing my boss. He is the hero who is supporting more than anyone. I determine to be a victorious person. Right now as I face the most adverse situation of my life, I determine to Bounce back. To win and….. To BREAK THE CODE…
Muuaahhhhhhhhhhhhh
ZZzzzzzz………
Posted on April 21, 2010What a day!!!!I mean I might fall down any moment and go to sleep.I am that tired!But still,what a day?I made mistakes today at work and I am kind of upset about it.But, I am glad that I learnt something.It is a good experience.To learn.I had a very hectic day and I m kind of drained out with the energy and all.Still, I think all this is worth learning something.I might never learn it from any one or any other source in my life.I know
I am sooo tird
I am weak at certain ends and trust me I am not proud of it.But, I am feeling bad because of HIS attitude.I called HIM to take some help and he refused.Said that he does not know whereas,he was the one who had taught me the same thing sometime back.i wonder why are people so selfish.Not that I am very selfless, but still.I understand if you are bad,mean and rude to some one who has been the sme to you.This is human nature.But, unnecessarily why do people have to behave like a ass wholes?Does not make sense?Does it?
Just because I had been praising some one else in front of HIM from past couple of days,he has started behaving like this.Then fine,if I find someone very interesting.More than you then I have the complete right to praise him.Go to hell man.I live my life on my own rules according to m own comfert.I have in any case wasted many months and years after just one man.Now I need to focus life according to my own terms.I believe that is how it should be.There is a limit to everything.Too much of love,Too much of care in any case does not make you feel right
So,I’ll end it here.Damn tired.I declare the mood of the day to be..’exhausted!’
Love you all
MMuuaahhh
Good Happy Days Are Back Again
Posted on April 20, 2010Yaayyeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! I am happy!!!!!!!!Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay,let me get a grip on myself first…hmm..pheww….Finally after so many bloody sad, depressing days I am feeling happy.I was just going through my previous entries.If you have read them and still alive or not abusing me then baby, You really love me!I mean..Oh God!!So much of depression!I myself had started feeling bad and all sympathetic about myself.
But you know, Natasha James is not just about emotions.I am lot more than that.Actually it has been so long i got someone laid!Honestly(boss, remove that smirk!)I really think that before my libido goes inactive I should find someone for myself!Yessss…these were the wordings i was dying to say to my self!Move on!!!!!Who the fuck cares If I am still in love with HIM or not.Once I am with some one else then,probably he will automatically take a back seat.This is what I was thinking.I am free now.Was kinda busy from past few days,so all that depression and plus stupid dumb periods won’t happen!!!!No!I am not pregnant(i think so…ahm ahm!!!NO i am NOT pregnant)I would have known.
Anyways..so brand new determination!A brand new guy should be on his way now because, I am calling out for him!I will not even have to say it to myself that I still love HIM.If he does not care then who am I to bother.Now, careful, I am not saying that there will not be any talk about him but yes I can at least think of getting busy and not think of HIM much.
my happy face,winking
Why the fuck in this entire bloody world should I be the only dumb ass to wait for HIM.In any case HE has too many girls to keep HIM busy so probably I’ll take a break.He can have number of smooches and excellent romps with any girl.I am tired now.I need to refresh myself.
So,life seems good so far,I have truck loads of work coming up and, hopefully this time I’ll enjoy it.No more depressing shit for anyone…..
Oh BTW I am so happy because….I just feel like being happy 
Love you people
MMuuaaahhhhhhh
