Are You A Good Flirt?…Then Get Outa Here!!!!
Posted on April 30, 2010Sometimes you just cannot really help but curse yourself for bringing up issues that take you down the memory lane. I did the same today. I know, I had promised that I will never discuss HIM. Yet, today while conversing with a friend HE entered my head. My friend said, “flirting is an art” and I swear i felt like dropping an Hiroshima type Bomb on him. But then, how can I say anything to him. I myself was a fool to trust HIM. I love him. He knows that. I know that he knows that. Sometimes You just cannot hate people. Even If they have hurt you to the core. Today all my memories came back. Like those similar Bollywood movies flashback scenes. lolz.. When he used to hold my hand when we used to go for walks, When he wont let me use the umbrella if it started raining, 
My reaction To People Who Flirt
He never showed it but, he observed every single detail about me. How he understood everything before I ever had the need of speaking it. Is it really possible? Getting so close to someone, knowing every detail about me (he even remembered my dates of cycles) without really being involved emotional. How is that possible? It requires a lot of involvement. Even if he did like me, aisa kya hua that hi just stopped feeling for me. Leaving me speechless in the dark? I called him today. I could not help myself. I miss him so much every day. I wish I could tell him this. Or make him believe that no one will love him more than me. But, as they say. It was my fault that i believed him when he never said ‘I LOVE YOU’.
Does love happen only when these words are said? NO! Love happens when you see some one looking at you with those eyes that make you feel so nervous, it happens when you spend countless hours just talking to him and never running out of a topic, when you see your cellphone a 100 times in a minute and when it beeps ‘you smile’.
For people who think flirting is not wrong- You guys are wrong!!! Trust me. You will be held responsible for taking away innocence and belief of those so many people who believe in LOVE and believe in you. Please if my words matter to any of you or you connected with any one thought of mine. Please value people who love you. You cannot love them back? that is fine. Just make them feel special. They have suffered a lot for your love my dear.
Boss thanx for the encouraging words today…I adore you even more now 
love
mmuuaaahhhh
It Pays To Be A Love Guru!!!!!!!!!
Posted on April 22, 2010Aaarrgghhhh! How on earth can girls be this dumb?I fail to understand this(not because i am dumb!)I regret being the love guru in those early teenage days.I really do.My school friend called me two days back and told me that her some other friend is in a problem and needs advice.I though must be a simple,small in size problem.But, man I was wrong!!!! I really feel like blurting it out(why should I suffer alone!)
Lets hypothetically assume that MY friends name is ‘S’ and HER friends name is ‘A’.so I told ’s’ that I dont want to give my number to’A’ so, you can just pass her queries to me through your cell.Now the series of mental torture begins.Every day,BLOODY EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! ‘A’ messages some dumb questions to’S’ and she forwards to me.AsRRhhhhh!!!! KILL ME!!!PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!! This is my reaction when i read her nonsense.Stuff like..
“I love him.what should I do?”
“I think he just talks to me when he needs me.Should i continue talking to him?”
“But what if he needs me as a friend?Should I stop talking to him?”
I Feel So Irritated At Times
“I am missing him so much.should i message or make him miss me?”
“He sometimes makes me feel so special.He says I am special for him.Does that mean…:-) ”
“but I love him”
NO GODDAMMIT!YOU DON’T LOVE HIM YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL.DO YOU KNOW THE MEANING OR WANT ME TO LINK YOU A THESAURUS?YOU ARE EXPECTING MAGIC TO HAPPEN.GO AND READ MILLS AND BOONS YOU ASSHOLE!!!!!AND THAT BASTARD…..NO HE DOES NOT LOVE YOU.HE DOES NOT GIVE A FUCK TO WHETHER YOU MESSAGE HIM OR NOT!!!!!!HE TAKES YOU AS A FRIEND AND IS PROBABLY MOODY.PLEASE DON’T FLOW IN EMOTIONS AND END UP HAVING SEX WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WAS FEELING LONELY AND YOU ARE A GOOD FRIEND.STUPID DUMB WOMEN,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pheeeewwwwww….this helped.Honestly.No one should mix love with friendship,coz if things don’t workout you end up with nothing.Niether your best friend nor, the man you love. I did the same mistake and now, I have nothing.I wish some one would have been there to warn me.Someone to tell me how things might turn up in the end.I wish i had never said ‘yes’
I Miss You…
Posted on April 17, 2010Okay…Today I really want to share this stuff.I had written this around a few months back for HIM! It was late in the night and i was missing him a lot.But, i could not tell him.I knew he was fast asleep and I also knew he would declare it insane if I would have called him up at that hour.So here it goes…my feelings and love for him straight from the heart.
WARNING:diabetes patients beware..it is too sugar coated!
Flashback begins…
It is again one of those nights that do not allow me to sleep.I myself don’t feel like sleeping and miss the opportunity to admire this beautiful night.It is calm night.A quite one.The wind is strong but harmless.The moon spells it’s beauty like never before.Though it’s not a full moon night but I doubt if full moon would have looked better than this.The combination of darkness of the night and brightness of the moon give the sky a breathtaking look!To add on to the beauty small patches of clouds are outlined by silver moonlight.
Oh baby, I wish you could be here with me.Together we could feel the breeze move.I would lie down with your arms wrapped around me.Like a little child is protected from the cold outside.I would feel your breath, with my face buried in your chest.
I know right now you must be fast asleep,dreaming of someone I can never be.:-(But I hope that my feelings reach you somehow, and you get to know how much I an missing you right now.It’s not love that makes people special in your lives.It’s their absence that makes them worth being special.I love you and may be I will never be able to tell you how much.All I can do is hope,that you feel with the same intensity.
LOVE you always….
Back to the present….
So..this is what i felt that night.I never got a chance to make him read this, Because we broke up in the next few days.There still are beautiful nights but, no more do they look special to me now.He is no longer with me.
The Last Dance…
Posted on April 15, 2010It is so beautiful to live a life where you can share the most intimate and honest thoughts with someone, whom you know will understand you because he feels the same.I also had this one guy in my life.Whoever says that love happens only once has probably never understood the emotion.I am a person with a very loud and outgoing personality.I have met and dated a couple of guys from every walk of life.From the ’stay away’ types to the ‘perfect personalities’, I have known them closely.After so many years of being part of the dating business I finally met someone who managed to stop me from moving on.There is something about him.He is a very regular kind of a guy.Hardworking,funny,smart,egoistic,selfish,caring.He is everything.
As the usual story goes,we met, became good friends and decided to date each other.The first time we got intimate is till date the most special day for me.He had come over to my place casually.I hate silence, so i put on some music.In a very gentlemen way he asked me to dance with him.I was just so casual and fine withh it.I had danced with guys before as well, so nothing different(Thats what i thought)As we started dancing,after a minute or so I realised I was too close to him and his stare was making me uncomfertable.I was litrally shifting from one feet to another.He asked,”are you uncomfertable?” and i lied.Then he said in a very smart and confident way,”Then look into my eyes and dance”.
I was very uncomfertable now.He pulled me closer with his hands on my back.Do all guys look this handsome?Or i never noticed them?I was talking to my conscience again!Then his next words blew me!”You are very beutiful you know”,No man had ever said this on my face looking into my eyes.
“thanks” was all that came out with so much runng in my mind.
Before I could realise he kissed me.OH MY GOD!even as I write this I have that ‘OhMygod feeling inside me’.Passionatly we were liplocked for good 3minutes(yesss!it was this long!)I had never experienced desire this strong and i can only hope it was the same with him.I pushed him away and i guess my expressions said it all
“yes,i like you ALOT”, was all he said.and took me back in his arms.The feelings of his hands moving on my back was simply amazing!I think this is the best thing about loving someone.His every action makes you feel desired.He did the same to me.Lust took over(along with feelingd.mind it!)and we moved to sofa and then to bed.(No i am not getting into the details of that!)I loved having him so close to me.The only time when he is not flirting or thinking about any other women.He was all mine.I used to go crazy with his touch.He loved teasing me in public amd I just used to get so embarresed.But i cherish that time.For the first time I understood the meaning and feelings behind being kissed by someone you love.
I don’t think I can ever feel the same or as a matter of fact even allow some other guy to be this possesive and personal with me.It was only him, and I don’t regret being single if it means living in his memories everyday.He is worth it.Worth loving.Cannot realy help it you know.
He is irresistible.Trust me..
But now we are not together.He has other women in his life and I am not really suppose to interfere.But there is just one thing I want to ask him,even if he has answered a number of times.The times that we had spend together are priceless for me.Is it the same for you?
Argghhh…Summers!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on April 14, 2010I have been thinking since morning, what to write today?But, then I realized that,HELUUU, THIS NOT ABOUT THINKING AND WRITING!So here i am again typing immediately what comes first to my mind. By the way i just saved my guy’s pic on my phone as a screen saver.I know it makes no sense(even he would say that), but then, most of the things that we do are to give happiness to our own selves.Sometimes I feel Irritated with my own self,with the thought that how can my life be so focuses around him.He does not love me.I know this and I am not a person who expects miracles to happen.But, I like what I feel.Feel only for him.If I would have heard someone saying this an year back i would have declared her mad..but now i know what i am saying and the reason behind it.Anyways…I am not gonna babble about him again and again…
Holiday today….stupid dumb summers are getting on my nerves!I cannot bear the heat.And on top of it…we have to wear extra pair of clothes.Not fair u know..If i would have had it my way…then this place would have been a clothe free zone in summers.I am damn sure that there are many girls out there who would agree(and guys as well ).In any case girls are always made to feel that they are being scanned once they get into there summer outfits.
The other day when, I was walking around in skirt and spaghetti(hope i have spelled it right and guys know what this is)I got a good hearing from my mom,”What kind of clothes are you wearing and moving around in the house?Immediately go and wear something decent!”.I was like…huh? Decent?At the cost of getting myself baked in the heat and temperature. Whatever anyone says, boss i cannot deal with these thick clothes and all.Once I am inside my house, i can’t wait to get rid of my clothes and move around in something easy and strappy(Don’t let your imaginations rum wild.please!)Anyways..I am off to drink my favorite drink…..Will write soon…
MMUUaahhh……….
