He Must Have Regretted This Day
Posted on June 09, 2010WHAT A DAY!!!! WOW! CRAZY FREAKING DAY!!! Have any of you got that feeling after seeing your ex boyfriend/girlfriend, “Gosh I used to be crazy after him??”. I am sure you must have. Today I had this feeling. I encountered my first crush today in the market and MAN! he is so hell weird now. Anyways i saw him today and I could not help myself from going and talking to him.
I actually went running towards him and you know what! He got scared and did not even look at me. I was standing Right there in front of him. Just a few inches away. Jumping like a child. All he did was to look at some distant far away point I could not locate and nod. I could not stop laughing!
He looked so scared! He had always been a quite guy but THIS quite, never! He could not speak. I even said,” C’mon I am your first girlfriend, don’t be so shy!” but nope, he was determined to flee the moment he got that one moment to run.
This might not sound that funny right now, but I have never enjoyed ignorance more than today! And then…….when he finally decided to go he almost ran! At his full speed….people were staring at him as if some wild dogs where set after him…..and I was standing right there holding my stomach and laughing the hell out of myself!!!!!
This is what should happen to people who have hurt you in the past. I did not feel bad by making him nervous. I had once given him a very special position in my life but he turned out to be a sissy and abused my care. H enever had the guts to carry a relation and gave me a bad experience. You think its wrong? I think it was NOTHING to what I could have made out him in the market.
Sorry Mridul, but you did disappoint me and took away the innocence of first love…
“EveryOne Says Right Guy Will Come Along…I Think Mine Got Hit By A Truck”
Posted on May 26, 2010I am so proud of my eyes. I solemnly Pledge to pamper and take care of them and never hurt them. After all if, it wouldn’t have been for them, I would have never discovered this awesome guy! (What else do you expect?) Extremely fair, rugged looks, black T shirt and holding a cigarette in style (I am not encouraging smoking by the way) But it looked good on him. Our eyes met and my favorite mills and boons character came alive right in front of me. Simply delicious guy.
I wish Fairy tales would come true..atleast for me
He looked at me, I looked at him. We looked at each other and then….went back to our respective dwellings. At least I did. (Did I let you down?)
This is what happens every time. I come across a cute ass. Exchange ‘those looks’ and move on. Huh! Boring life. My friends are better, who at least have the guts to talk to a new guy in the block. On the contrary I, only know how to stare and run away if a guy approaches. I was not like this but….leave it!
Me and my life..Typically boring. As a matter of fact I Have grown out of those ‘prince charming’ dreams. In fact, my prince will come on a white horse with those gorgeous looks, rich and classy with shinning eyes would get off the horse, approach me in slow motion will put forward his right hand and..and ask me, ” Madam problem kya hai? Why are you staring?”
So next time if I start with something like today, please do not get your hopes high. My Love story ends much before the beginning.
My Love story= R.I.P
P S – the lines in the headline are not mine..it is a famous quote
I Need My Magus Back..
Posted on May 12, 2010Crap!..Stupid emotional days are back. My life remains the same as before. Last year the same month, my schedule used to be the same. 6 o clock jogging..coming back by 8 and then talking to HIM. HE gets up early. Then when everyone in my family would go to their respective workplaces, I would turn on the Radio In the Music System so that I don’t feel all alone in the house. But then, I would get to to the phone and start talking to HIM and won’t even remember which song is being played. Life is more or less the same even now. Just with the difference that I don’t have HIM and the music system does not help in getting rid of the Loneliness anymore…
I am missing HIM today (so obvious!)..and I don’t know how to tell HIM this. I will ruin the friendship. Getting annoyed by HIM helps but, not for long. I decided to watch some movie today and the first movie I saw coming, was one movie that we had seem together of a different language. I feel so stupid now that loving HIM has cost me more than I had imagined. HE is so sure that we will never be together and I have completely accepted the fact. But, you know sometimes (which is almost every night) I dream of HIM..of HIM proposing me and perhaps, that is why I don’t sleep. That is so dumb..I know that.and i laugh at myself so frequently and today I am crying..crying for HIM after such a long time. I thought I had become strong..but no…certain memories remain and the bad ones never leave.
Now I know why do people say that Love happens only ones…You may feel love many times for different men but, you feel heartache THIS bad only for one.Like always..I end up shouting in the empty house… DON’T GO Please… Come Back…I Love You… Like Always..For Forever…
I LOVE YOU
See even I can act like a dumb emotional ass. I am not weak sweetheart but, like I cannot refuse my own existence..I cannot refuse my love… I feel so lost and scared without you. As if I am so scared with everything..I need HIM back..Please God…..Give me back my Magus…
(btw my friend Sahil just called to ask me what is Brazilian Wax…God!!! how can Men be so curious??…now i can’t stop laughing… that is why I Love my friends)
Happy! :-)
Posted on May 08, 2010I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Seriously I don’t think I have been happier that this ever since I Started writing here. It feels good. I am such a bitch! Honestly! I have done the most forbidden, the most ‘not so moral’ stuff, lied to people, to my family but one guy! Yes, it’s HIM. I have never lied to him. Never in the past one year, I felt like lying to HIM. This was the comfort level we shared. and yAyeeeeeeeeeeeeee….I continue my record. yyeeepppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee… See basically I don’t have much to tell , as I cannot express my feelings inside me. This is the most stupid part. When you cannot express your feelings in words.
Yesss....My Face Is exactly like this....
I was sitting with my friend today, and we were discussing our journey so far together( Yes, we gals are bloody velli and emotional) and when we reached my life one year back and HE came into focus I stopped babbling. It was a different feeling that was surfacing itself in my heart. The freshness of life that I felt in those days. Everything was the same. My dwelling was the same,my family,family environment..But everything sad and bad was too trivial to pay attention to. The most beautiful feeling was inside me and the guy who gave me that feeling with me.
See, Now you people see…how can I expect myself to move on..when he is so much within my………..(pause)……. existence? ( did i even make sense with that line?) I wanna know your experience with Love..any one? anyone at all?
Are You A Good Flirt?…Then Get Outa Here!!!!
Posted on April 30, 2010Sometimes you just cannot really help but curse yourself for bringing up issues that take you down the memory lane. I did the same today. I know, I had promised that I will never discuss HIM. Yet, today while conversing with a friend HE entered my head. My friend said, “flirting is an art” and I swear i felt like dropping an Hiroshima type Bomb on him. But then, how can I say anything to him. I myself was a fool to trust HIM. I love him. He knows that. I know that he knows that. Sometimes You just cannot hate people. Even If they have hurt you to the core. Today all my memories came back. Like those similar Bollywood movies flashback scenes. lolz.. When he used to hold my hand when we used to go for walks, When he wont let me use the umbrella if it started raining, 
My reaction To People Who Flirt
He never showed it but, he observed every single detail about me. How he understood everything before I ever had the need of speaking it. Is it really possible? Getting so close to someone, knowing every detail about me (he even remembered my dates of cycles) without really being involved emotional. How is that possible? It requires a lot of involvement. Even if he did like me, aisa kya hua that hi just stopped feeling for me. Leaving me speechless in the dark? I called him today. I could not help myself. I miss him so much every day. I wish I could tell him this. Or make him believe that no one will love him more than me. But, as they say. It was my fault that i believed him when he never said ‘I LOVE YOU’.
Does love happen only when these words are said? NO! Love happens when you see some one looking at you with those eyes that make you feel so nervous, it happens when you spend countless hours just talking to him and never running out of a topic, when you see your cellphone a 100 times in a minute and when it beeps ‘you smile’.
For people who think flirting is not wrong- You guys are wrong!!! Trust me. You will be held responsible for taking away innocence and belief of those so many people who believe in LOVE and believe in you. Please if my words matter to any of you or you connected with any one thought of mine. Please value people who love you. You cannot love them back? that is fine. Just make them feel special. They have suffered a lot for your love my dear.
Boss thanx for the encouraging words today…I adore you even more now 
love
mmuuaaahhhh
